Path chosen

In life, there will always be choices, a path to be chosen, to be taken. It is either this or that. Either the bad one or the good one..or rather the easy one or the difficult/hard one. Maybe the one that interest you or the one that does not. Decision wise...well, that depends..it is either you independently make the decision or influenced by other factors..

Since young, most decisions were made especially by your parents. Well, at least, mostly were influenced by your parents. Would you agree? And as you grew older, you learned to make your own choices. Maybe for me, I realized decision is actually mine to make was after the SPM examination. What is it that you want to become? A doctor? I am now a medical doctor but have I always dreamt of becoming one? I don't think so..Of course, I have to admit when I was in primary school-I'm sure you are familiar with the 'record book'-I wrote down doctor as my ambition in the 'cita-cita' section. I just thought that it is a glamorous and noble job..second on the list engineer..the third one..architect. However, I don't think that really came from my heart.

After SPM I thought I am never going to do something that is related to Biology..I prefer Physics and Maths..actually i like those subjects. However, opportunity came..sponsorship to further studies overseas in medicine. Who would have chosen to decline the opportunity? I think only the headstrongs would. And those who knew from the beginning what they want to do or knew from the beginning the purpose of living. I never knew that..even now still. It seemed blur to me. So I just 'go with the flow'. Let the 'arus' take me instead I can swim against the 'arus'. Few doctors my friends and I met during the preparation time before going abroad..they would say.."betul ke nak jadi doktor ni?dah fikir masak-masak ke?"

My father told me about his doctors friends. How each has different aims or should I say mindset which drives them to be what they have become. One of them really wanted to help people. Another wanted an easier life and more quality time with family. Another wanted to make lots of money. Some of them even have other side jobs or should I say 'hobbies' maybe to make life more interesting. For example, rearing goats. Well, I guess life does not end just there. Like that's it. You are a doctor and you are dead. No! You can have something else if you work for it. You can make life as a doctor more interesting if you know how to. You can make any other job interesting if you want to.

Becoming a doctor however is not an easy thing to do..When you don't have any other commitments..such as family and children, maybe it is easier. Especially to juggle the time between work and family. It is not easy for me as well to accept that I am a doctor because I don't think I ever wanted to become a doctor. There is no turning back time. All you can do is look and move forward. You can still choose not to work as a doctor and become something else. Or you can still choose to specialize in any field that you like. It is not the end. There are still many choices to take. Physicians, lecturers, pathologists, surgeons, radiologists, general practitioners, etc. All you have to do is work hard towards it. And if you don't have in mind what do you want to become, 'dah alang kepalang dah jadi doktor...daripada tak buat apa-apa atau tak tahu nak buat apa kan lebih elok diri ni digunakan untuk berkhidmat untuk orang.' If your aim to get money by becoming a doctor..forget about it. Well, not just doctor..maybe other jobs too. If you feel you want to help people, your life will be better. You'll get satisfaction out of it.

My entry this time is very terrible. English isn't so good. 'Penyusunan ayat dan isi lagi lah..tak payah cakaplah teruknya.' I'm sorry about that. I need to improve my english and essay writing as well.