An update

It has been quite sometime since I updated this blog..I just came back from my 2-week holiday in Malaysia..seemed like a very long holiday for a working person like me..I got to celebrate Hari Raya Haji in Malaysia with my family for the first time after 6 years being away from home..that's quite a long time for me..celebrating hari raya nowadays in Malaysia is not as 'meriah' as the ones when I was young..well, depends on how we define 'kemeriahan' in celebrating hari raya..for me, what I always define celebrating hari raya is that is the day during which all or almost all family members get together..if there are many, then the hari raya would be meriah..when I was home recently, all there is was me, mak and bapak..so guess how meriah was it?both of my brothers were not at home..my niece and her mom, of course follow my brother balik kampung la..in Terengganu..my sister, in Galway Ireland.Celebrating raya there would be very meriah..with lots of people around..We actually visited family members around Kuala Lumpur and Selangor..that was all..and the other thing that defines raya for me is the food. I got to eat lemang and rendang. We used to make our own lemang..well, actually my bapak is the chef..the others tolong-tolong saja..but when asked 'kenapa taknak buat lemang sendiri dah?' my bapak answered 'dah takde orang'..but we did our own rendang and well, actually my mom is the chef..we just tolong-tolong saja..kupas bawang je..hehe..and our special dish..sambal goreng..jawa punya!well, my nenek punya resipi..we just love her sambal goreng that we copy her exact recipe so that we can make it ourself. Come to think of it, raya just felt empty..kosong..nothing to celebrate..for me at least..if that is how we define hari raya..no sense of meaning..i forgot or probably do not get/understand the reason we celebrate the day..i just don't..I'm really bad.

Enough about hari raya, I want to talk about inspiration. Have you ever felt inspired? you know..it is those feelings that there is a drive to want or to do something influenced by others..it is those feelings you would not want to lose..something to look forward..well, I'm sure people have been inspired by others..I've been inspired by many people unknowingly. I never knew what inspiration meant until one day when I was in my 2nd year of medicine, I like the way my lecturer teaches anatomy till that I understand..then I love the subject very much at that time..and told my bapak that I think I want to become a lecturer in anatomy like my lecturer..and my bapak said..you know what..that is called inspiration..only then I knew..many people does not realize how they inspire others..there are many people that have inspired me to want and to do things..they don't know..but I do that they have inspired me..for those reading this, probably you have inspired me..you'll never know..as if there is people reading this..it's ok..syok sendri pun syok sendri lah..isn't it amazing how you can do good by inspiring people..